Hmm I m like you, I don't have someone close but I live with one fact which turn outs to be real, that is that the best thing in life happens when you are not looking for them and everyone gets everything when the time is right, I m not experienced in this, but I know that no matter how hard it can be at times but just keep going and it will be better if you will stop looking and start being the best person, the one will find way into your life and believe me if you will remember this whole para I wrote then you will smile when that happens. If you ever want to talk about anything just message me. Take care