Hey there! First of all, I can relate a lot to you. I've gone through depression, I've worked really crappy part time jobs, and as of right now, I too feel sluggish and unmotivated. I like to think that I am a decent person, and boys lie to me and hurt me as well. But I can tell you this, things will get better if you take the time to redo things. My first year of college went well, then I stopped going for over a year due to personal stuff. I re-enrolled in a college, and 2 years later, I can proudly say that I am a nurse! Trust me, I've had my share of crying in my room from failed classes. It happens. But you can turn this all around. Think of it this way... You can stick it out at your job now, or start searching for a new one. If you're not already, start school and really focus on your studies. Make balanced time for work, school, and your personal life. Then, a few years from now, you'll be graduated too! I know how hard it can be and the struggle, but you CAN do it! Promise. As for the relationships, don't let it get you down. Boys suck sometimes. Don't waste your time with people that are wasting yours. The right guy will come around in perfect timing. I'm here if you need me! Best of luck!
