My psychologist, nurse, doctors all tell me to be less hard on myself but I am having huge problems with this. I don’t feel like I am “good” at anything, I don’t find in anything (bar eating!!), I have no social life and can’t do the few things I might like (such as going to concerts) because my current medication prevents it and I have no one to go with.
I like being alone, there are just some social occasions that are easier when you’re not solo.
I feel like I need to earn my right to happiness because of the destruction I have caused. People become too attached to me and I take more than I give.
I don’t want to be the sad sack I’ve been over the last seven years. Struggling to get out of bed or partying hard and schmoozing everyone.
I keep being told I need to change, but I have no idea how!