My boyfriend and I have been dating for about a year and a half now, (I’m 15, he’s 16) and he’s never really had any female friends that I know of before. But now, he’s gotten close to this really pretty girl (who’s his age as well) and she seems so nice, and I can’t help but be so scared that he’ll like her and leave me for her. I’ve gotten jealous over him before, when he’d talk to a girl because once one of them tried to flirt with him. I think he finds it annoying how I’m always jealous, that’s why I haven’t told him about being jealous this time, but this time it hurts so much more than all the other times.
He has this girls number, and I know he messages her. No, I didn’t look through his phone I’m not like that, but he brings her up like literally every single day and when I’d ask him what he’s doing he’d tell me he’s replying to her. I can’t even get a decent and fast reply from him, but I feel like when it’s her he rushes to his phone to give her a nice reply.
How can I stop feeling like this? I’m happy for him having friends now, he used to literally be so alone when I first met him. I don’t want him to feel like he can’t talk to females because I’ll go off in a mood, but at the same time I feel like sometimes he mentions girls to intentionally make me jealous. I don’t think he realises that it hurts so much. I can feel it in my chest and when it gets really bad i can’t breathe and I start shaking and crying.
I can’t bare the thought of him leaving me, I’m alone myself without him.