Recently I just broke up with my Ex of a year and five months.
And Ive been trying to keep myself busy, hang out with friends and, when I come home I try to catch up on TV shows Ive never finished, or doing covers, and dancing.
But today I was cleaning my room and I found my exs snuggie…. I know it sounds dramatic, and I sound extremely emotional, but I am, especially when I love him so much.
I just started to brake down, and I grab one of shirts he gave me with his name on it, and I graved the bag I gave him on Christmas that he returned with my things in it. And I started to pack away his stuff, and take out two little picture things (you get at a photo booth) from us earlier when we were dating and one from my prom. But I threw out the meaningful things, like his corsage from prom, and our Christmas stockings…. W.e
Point is, im trying to distract myself, and whenever I do start to miss him, I would read all the reasons (I keep a pros, and cons) of why we didn’t work. But its difficult when I want to text someone because i don’t have any friends, and the two friends i have don’t text me as much, or I want to tell someone great news, but i have no one who really cares, or im having a bad day and i want someone to cheer me up, or when my mom starts to complain at me about ridiculous things.
I don’t know how to let it go, and i miss him so much and i have the only urge to run to his house (we live a block away from each other) and have him come downstairs and hug him to death, But i know the reason why im not going to do that.
Can someone please help, its depressing, and i feel really lonely at times like this.