Alright, to start this off, I’m in 8th grade and I lost a friend.
Ok, a little back story:
I used to have this best friend, and we were friends for 3 years. Let’s just call him Jake.. And he was literally my only friend in my grade. But Jake also had other friends while I had nothing so whenever he wasn’t at school I would be really fucking lonely…
Anyways..
This spring he started fading away and withdrawing because he was always so busy playing Minecraft and skyping with girls online..Not to mention he was a complete douche to me,
He called me stupid all the time, started drama if I was feeling depressed, made my anxiety worse, blah blah blah..
And then we started getting into fights everytime we talked so about 2-3 months ago we got into a HUGE fight and just stopped talking. Well – Jake stopped talking to me because I’m too dramatic, which kinda makes sense because I was the one who usually started those stupid fights, but that might be because of my stupid anxiety that makes me snap at people sometimes. (Alot of stress makes me pissed.)
And I cried, I screamed, I hated myself because I wasn’t good enough.
I still feel that way sometimes but anyways..On to the main topic now..
I really, really want to make him regret ditching me like that. Throwing away that friendship like that.
I have some friends at my school but they’re 1 year younger and I don’t see them that often at school,
but people are really close in my grade since our school system is 1-10 graders are all in the same school so we say hi and stuff.
But how can I make him REGRET leaving me?
I want to look as happy as possible and have so much fun, but it seems impossible because I feel like shit at school 
But he sees that and just enjoys it because he knows well he was my only fucking friend. -
Because I forgot to mention, he thinks he’s all that, he thinks I need him and shit, like he tried to manipulate me last week with texts like:
“I’m blocking you because you said this instead of that and now you don’t have a chance”
But I’m already over him. I’m just lonely, and I’m sick of him torturing me.
I just want to make him suffer now.
I wanna make him regret leaving me so much, I want him to be the one needing me, and crying like a bitch.
I’m tired of being the victim here!
I know this sounds mean and harsh but he has put me through so much shit that I feel like some karma needs to be in this situation.
I’ve even seen him TRYING to fake laugh and talk random shit to people in class whenever I glance at him,
It dosen’t work anymore though.
It’s just annoying and pretty amusing.
I just need some tips…
Because he’s been enjoying making me feel like CRAP. But now it’s my turn. I’ve tried getting the friendship back, no use, just makes me look like a little weak bitch.
How can I possibly make him regret throwing me away?
Sorry for the extremely long question, I felt like I needed to put the back story so it would be more clear.
Please no mean comments or anything, I just need something to stop feeling so weak and useless.
