I find myself not as happy with my life as I see others. Seems as though I missed the boat or something. Things seem foreign to me like women and relationships. Somewhere inside of me there is an “under construction” sign but the workers are on permanent break.
No one is happy all the time, if they are then there is a good chance they have as many issues as someone who is sad all the time. Just go with the flow and life will guide you because there is no right or wrong way to live so do what works for you. No one person is the same so what make one person happy might be different for other so I wouldnt compare your life to someone else. Enjoy the simple things in life and make the best out of every situation, dont wear a mask and have no regret :)
You can't be happy if you're never sad or upset. A better way to keep yourself happier though would be to try not to worry that much with your current situations, I personally preoccupy myself while I mull over my decisions. Just try not to procrastinate though, that can easily lead to more stress.
Do the things you love. If you don't know, then find some. Maybe try creative writing-- you sound like you have a great imagination! If that's not for you, then try something else. Just find what you love doing. Find people that enjoy the same things you do(online or in real life).
Remember happiness is the cure to everything. Believe There Is Good.
You might seem happy to certain people all the time. Just because your appearance on the outside seems a certain way does not necessarily mean you are feeling that way on the inside. Learning what makes you happy is apart of living. Try new experiences when ever you get the chance. Sometimes you may feel like you are not happy but really its your mind telling you that it is bored and it wants to try something new. Try something exciting or thrilling and make sure to have an open mind while doing it. Don't presume you won't like doing something if you have not actually experienced it.