ok, here it is, when there's pain in your life,you cant just skip through it, or circle your way around it, pain is made to go through, that is the only way, because when you are going through true pain you have to live through it, that's the whole point of it. ok, like in your current situation, I cannot tell you I understand exactly what you are going through, or say that it will be ok later on, I wont feed you lies, but I can help you right now, I can tell you how the present can affect the future but truth is, if you're not ready to feel happy, don't force yourself, because you will only be truly happy on your own terms, its all about patience honey, and right now it may not be the best, right now you may just want to end it all, and you are going through pain, but without this pain, you wouldn't be who you are today. so all you need is patience, and take your own healing time to be happy, not rush into it, don't let anyone rush you into it, because its YOUR happiness, and you decide when to make it all happen. Have a wonderful day sweetie, I believe in you.