How bad is it to be fixated and obsessed with planning/thoughts of your own suicide.

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I have dreams/daydreams of my own suicide. I honestly love those dreams. They are so vivid and and the feeling of exhilaration I get from them is amazing. I also am thrilled just with the thought of dying. Im obsessed with it. though I have been trying for the last 8 months to recover from severe depression I still plan my own death frequently, even when im in a normal, happy mood. I contemplate it all the time. when ever I am under the influence of anything I need to be looked after by friends, because they have constantly had to prevent me from jumping off of high places or walking into traffic, just to see what would happen. I do believe I need help. I have spoken of this to no one.

Category: Tags: asked June 15, 2013

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Suicidal tendencies... Common problem in 5/20 people today Everybody is been there at least once in their lifetime You find everything so boring Things you loved, seem boring and color less now But you need to take control over your feelings! You need to take control before they control over it!
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As somebody who has been in your shoes and has recently attempted suicide and actually almost died, I would say that these thoughts are not healthy. It's actually sort of odd how suicide and self-harm can become almost like an addiction. To this day, I am fairly certain that I'd prefer to commit suicide in old age once I start getting sick or unable to do things for myself, but that's a ways from now and I think would be much less sad than a younger person committing suicide.

As my grandfather put it, actually, it's that when an old person dies, you can see all of the things they've achieved, left behind, and so on, but when a young person dies, you only see the potential and are forced to wonder what we all missed out on because that person is no longer living.

So, the way you describe it, I wouldn't call you "crazy" or anything like that, but it does kind of sound like an addiction for you. I would actually recommend a therapist who deals with addictions because they specialize in that sort of obsessive thinking and also depression. Usually, people develop addictions as a result of depression or develop depression after developing an addiction.

If you reach the point where you actually believe that you might do harm to yourself, look up some hospitals in the area, find the one with the best things said about their psyc ward and admit yourself. I know some hospitals are crappy, but my experiences weren't actually all that bad (and the food was pretty good too). Most of what they do in a hospital is short term sort of treatment. Basically, do you need to be on medication; if you are on medication, does it need to be adjusted; what EXACTLY do you need in an outpatient setting? You can describe your feelings to one of the psychiatrists or social workers and they usually work on getting you set up with a therapist that meshes with you and your specific mental health needs.

Much luck to you! I hope you can get things sorted out because all of that passion would be great if applied elsewhere!
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if you are suffering from severe depression there is always help. it is not the best place to be. i would like to know what do you think is the cause of this depression that you are going through for so long. What happened to you so drastic that you plan your death? Death is not something you can enjoy or come back out of neither it is a quick fix from the problem you may be having currently.I have been through pain myself and i have come out of it.. committing suicide was an option and i was very close to committing it although in the back of my mind i knew that what i am doing will not kill me. the fact that it got attention was enough for me. the attention that seeked did not lead to anything good. i just lost everything. i would advise you to see a counsellor or talk to someone whom you are comfortable with. you are lucky your friends are there to take care of you and the help you need is available. Some people do not even have help and they are still tormented by their past day by day till the day they decide that it is time to end this and the only way is to die. what they leave behind is either a lot of debt, ailing loved ones who are forced to witness things that they have never done before and the daily emotional torture of not being with the one they have lost. Think twice before you take any unnecessary steps. what will change around you? who will be dealing with the mess you may create? who will be suffering a continuous death everyday? who will be forced to accept that you no longer exist and forced to live without you and what effect will it have on they mentally and physically?
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pretty bad......you really should seek professional help......perhaps check yourself into an actual hospital, or an E.R. or a facility of sorts where you are able to calm down and sort out life.