Have you ever wanted to end your life?

I think everybody thinks about ending their lives. Most people move on from those fleeting thoughts and never look back. A small group become consumed with those thoughts to a tragic end. The rest? They walk a thin line between the two, and without help there are bad endings. You've taken one step by coming here and giving voice to your struggles. That step was hard. Each successive step should be a little easier.

well sounds like you have the determination and the support but you said you felt sheltered and i could be off base here. My story is kinda similar to yours and very different. Right now i have all i need. But at the lowest point in my life i didn't have any of it. However none of that really mattered to me, the thing that almost pushed me over the edge was the lack of purpose. I think that if you lack it you are not far from finding it. You said you want to help the world heal. From an outside perspective that appears to be a general direction to move in. My point is that healing the world is a noble pursuit and I think it points in the direction of a possible goal. PM me if you want to talk about it.

I know what it feels like to not have a reason for being depressed, it's terrible. I've wanted to end my life many times, fortunately I only acted on it once and never since. Even though I'm still depressed and my mind sinks very low occassionly, I've come to fully realise and accept the fact that it wouldn't do anything for anybody, myself included. Perhaps it's the hope that sometime in the future I will do something good, for everybody, something that will prove to myself that my life was worth it, that it was not in vain - and untill I've reached that point in my life, I'm not giving up. I've come this far, I still have a long way to go but I'm sticking it through. Part of coming to this idea or way of thinking was to learn how to appreciate not specifically my own life, but life in general.

"Life is suffering." Life hurts... a lot! ok? it really really hurts! It hurts even more that it wasn't your decision to come into this world! But you have tons of big sisters and big brothers waiting to make you feel better when you get hurt. that way, even though all life is suffering, if one person is suffering, the other person can make them feel all better! use this site more!we are waiting to make you feel loved!<3

Have to say, that one person is horrible, and in no way representative of people in general. Also, depression is depression. You don't have to have a reason to feel depressed. Even if your life is objectively fine, you can still be depressed.I'm glad you don't want to end your life, and I wish you a good recovery.

Medication for depression is horrible, it only masks the pain you're feeling, and then when the meds wear off youre stuck in the same boat you were in before. I have been on every depression medication out there. But the best thing I did was become more active. I'm sure that everyone comes across the feeling of wanting to end it all at some point in their lives. But it really helps when you constantly keep yourself occupied, and with loads of friends you have, make plans, get out and do stuff, it will make you feel much better :) There will always be the days or nights that seem to drag on forever and you feel down, but youll always bounce back in the end. And if all else fails, I'm sure there are groups online and meetings worldwide for depression/anxiety/etc, so no matter what time it is and if you're feeling down someone somewhere will be there to listen to you :)

I think it's a matter of starting to consider suicidal thoughts (when you know already it's not really an option, and are working on your depression) as what they are, daydreaming escapism, sinking hole of mental energy, and mind poisoning. And when they are triggered, you get in a loop that you need to start knocking yourself out of, to make it stop. There's therapy and medicine but there's also you telling yourself every day, "No, no more thinking about this, it isn't helping".

When I was bullied in 6th grade and 7th grade, somewhere in the middle, I started having these dark thoughts of suicide and I snuck into my bathroom with a kitchen knife while my mom was vacuuming and my little sister was doing homework in the kitchen. So nobody saw me going to the bathroom, and I locked myself in there and I started crying because the bullies weren't going to care if I killed myself, the only onces who were going to care was my family and they didn't really deserve having to find my dead body and also have to arrange my funeral, and eventually morn the loss, especially mom who would have to call all her relatives and friends and them tell of how her oldest daughter (me) committed suicide. I loved my family too much to ever hurt them like that.
If your life really is as great as you say it is, I just hope that you'll see that even though something is missing in your life, you should be grateful for everything that you have right now. I make a list everyday, of 10 things that I am grateful for, and because of that, I can honestly say that I am happy with my life. Maybe you should try it too.
You should also know that just because someone said that to you, does not mean that you should feel hurt by it. Maybe they were just annoyed because committing suicide or talking about committing suicide, is very selfish. Suicide hurts EVERYONE that you care about, and it shouldn't be joked about.
Understand that the world is dangerous, and there are people who are not to be trusted in this world. But that doesn't mean that you can live your life in fear. Living in fear is not living at all, it's existing. Listen to someone who has been where you are now, there might be something missing from your life, but that's what life is all about! Finding out what you are really missing and find it, and be happy! I hope my advice was somewhat helpful.

I do too, sometimes. But ending own's life is never the answer. I like to think that this is what life is about. You will experience pain. But you get something more out of it. Pain should make you a stronger a person in time.. So that you will seek the help of your loved ones and strengthen that bond even more. I think that living in a perfect world, our life on this earth is useless. There is nothing else to learn. There would be no room for improvements. Keep in mind that everyone elsehas struggles. Some are just fortunate to either hide it or deal with it.