I’m having this weird habit of smiling unnecessarily at small things, mostly when I’m around my friends or acquaintances.
Even when a person I know is striking a conversation with me, I begin to smile at them and even I can’t reason it out. It has recently become even more often, to the point that I need to put a hand on my mouth many times. Even a little joke makes me smile, but I can’t laugh at all, nor am I able to cry for the past 2 years or so. It’s really started getting weirder by time, that even my friends and cousins have begin to ask me the reason for why I smile most of the time.
Even when I’m in a deep situation that is affecting me strongly, I just begin to take it lightly and smile like nothing has happened at all, but in reality it’s more of the opposite.
I should have reached the 11th grade by now but my gaming addiction has cost me 2 years of my high school life. I still remember, even during the time when I was mostly in depression after realizing what my actual situation was at that point, I just never bothered to think it over at all and smiled all the way as I was repeating the same grade again for the third time.
I know many people are there who are facing a situation opposite to mine where they are not able to smile at all and think of it as a blessing to be able to, but as a guy who has this over-smiling disorder which could get even worse with the time, I just want to act according to the situation and not just smile anytime even after understanding how dumb I look to be doing so without a reason at all. Even if not according to the situation, being able to control my pointless smiling is all I want.