Hi guys, so I have a problem.. I’m a person who switches obsessions, I’ve been obsessed with many things, death, BDSM, mental health… And now the current obsession is DRUGS. Yes, drugs.. I’m so scared.. Okay let me explain this obsession and clear a few things;
- NO I am not tempted to try them because of peer pressure, I don’t even know anyone who does them
- NO I’ve never tried them
- YES I’m worried about my future because of this
- YES I am a LIIITLE tempted, but I think I can control myself
- I am 14 if that helps
Now the basics are cleared I’ll try to summary it up..
It started maybe 2 weeks ago I was always making weed jokes, and I found them so funny and was always talking about it, and now it’s come to the point where I’m so curious about this that I’ve been watching science videos about how drugs work and experience videos, IT’S JUST SO INTERESTING, but it scares me :/ Yes I actually do want to try the safe ones like weed and shrooms but I’m DEFINETLY not planning for that until like in what.. 10 years? Whenever my life is stable and I can’t do much to fuck up? Or never? I’m just so scared that what if in college I’ll get addicted and fuck up my life and get disowned by my mother!? I just feel so trapped…I hate this.. But even if I really wanted them our country is small so there aren’t really any dealers which is good.. But, help me guys.. I do not wanna become like Miley Cyrus or Amanda Bynes, I do not wanna be a pothead or a teen that gets so high on Molly that she gets pregnant… IS this obsession NORMAL in teen years? By obsession I just mean researching it a lot and a LITTLE tempted to try it but fully aware of whats going on and keeping caution?
Sorry for the long question, I’m just.. Super scared, for my future, and college, I need to get this obsession out of my mind.. I just don’t know where to start..