FtM

Hi, this is my first time using this site so we will see how it goes
I’m very lost, confused, suicidal since i can remember. It wasnt until recently i came to terms with the fact that I am a boy, and i dont know how to feel about that. I don’t know who to turn to with this. I have a therapist, but i havent been able to speak very openly face to face unless its with one of my 3 friends who I told. And they certainly dont wanna hear it.
Lately, more people accidentally call me male, and that makes me feel good even if they correct themselves right after. At least they can feel my male energy. Sometimes i ask my friends to call me he, but they are either forcing it out (it sounds very forced) or calling me she or lesbian. I dont feel like they really get it, yet complete strangers get it, even my father (who im closeted to) called me sir! I have one friend who transitioned a couple years ago, but havent talked to him since the beginning of his transition. I guess I want to reach out, but I dont know how. I want to talk to someone who gets it, anyone. Does anyone know a good online forum or something I could look into?

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DazedAndConfused

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hey (: i stumbled on this question by chance. you're in the right place my name is Drake and i understand exactly what your going through! Im also a FtM & i was in the closet until 6 months ago . im on my phone atm but u can give me a private message &tomorrow&i would love to get to know you&help you out!

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Drakko

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hi im Adreian and I know how exacly how you feel im also ftm and its hard I know, sometimes it seems the world is easier on mtf cause it seems more common I only told one friend, my best friend and he completely ok with it but he still refers to me as female but he dosent force ti he cause me male every now and then cause he has a short memory and is forgetful you can private message me if you want

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adreian_is_here

Hey there,

I understand completely what you're dealing with. I'm Quinn and I haven't come out on this site yet, so... here I am out now. I'm trans male and I'm in the middle of my transition, dealing with a lot myself right now. Some people are awesome about it, others are dicks. I'm double majoring in Interpreting (for deaf people) and Psychology (specializing in gender identity and sexual orientation). My goal is to help other trans people and deaf lgbt people as well.

I also created a website if you're interested for trans people to find role models throughout history of trans people just like us since the days of the pharaohs who were successful and did incredible things. I'm more than willing to talk to you about your experiences and share my own and be there for you in any way that I can be. You can private message me if you like and if you really need to talk to someone asap, I'm more than happy to give you my text plus number so you can reach me anytime.

I understand the suicidal part. I've been there most of my life for as far back as I can remember and have done several stupid things. If you're looking for a friend, I would truly like to be that for you. Above all I wish for you the best and I'll just say that therapy can be really helpful and despite how people sometimes behave toward me... being myself openly has been the happiest I've ever been in my whole life. Take care of you out there.

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Tomorrow

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