Hey everyone,
Well my friends mother passed away recently and I feel as if all the feelings I have for her are rushing back. To clarify, we’re both girls, which is what’s also bothering me. I know I’m straight, however this isn’t the first time I’ve fallen for her. I liked her… for months prior to this happening, but then I stopped when I just quit texting her. But I just have this protective thing about her and all my friends to be honest, in which I hate when they’re hurting or when someone is causing them pain. But, the thing is, for all my other friends, I don’t get as emotionally involved. I check up on her often without her knowing, by either trying to get information discreetly from other close friends, or checking on her social network accounts, and I worry a lot about her. She seems to be in a deep stage of mourning, which I completely understand, hence the fact that her relationship with her father isn’t necessarily the best. It’s just that whenever I think of her, I swear I just fall in love again, and I keep thinking about how much I must help her. I am in no way looking forward to having a relationship with her, because I do know that that’s very unrealistic because she seems to be straight, even though she has never expressed her sexual preferences. I’m sorry for making this so long and I’ll try to cut it short. I want to both help her out, but I’m out of ideas. So far I got her a gift, I’m going to bake her some cookies, and I’m gonna invite her to a concert along with my other friend. But whenever I look her in the eyes, I literally have to look away or try to act normal since it’s like a whole lot is going on that she’s unaware of. And for those of you that want to know the answer… I’m not that sexually interested in her… since those thoughts don’t really appeal to me as much as it would with a guy. I’m willing to experiment I suppose, but I am a Catholic, and we all know how that goes. Overall, how else can I help her, and what should I do to maybe suppress these emotions or overall end them? Thank you so much for reading this, it means a lot.