Okay so I honestly don’t know where to begin with this. The title of this vent/question doesn’t do it justice. There is this guy that I have liked for the longest time. We dated for 2 weeks in high school and then he cheated on me (I didn’t care at the time). I graduated in 2014 and I moved to North Carolina the summer of 2014. I had no contact with him after I graduated. He recently came back into my life in February 2015. (After 8 months of no contact). We were inseparable. We spend or spent every waking moment together. I would go pick him up after work and spend all night with him and text him all day. He became my best friend and still is. Feelings resurfaced and he knows that. He knows how I feel about him. I’ve tried to explain it a million times but every time I bring “us” up in that way he shuts me down. He says things like “I don’t see you as that I only see you as a best friend” but yet, he will kiss me and tell me that he loves me when it’s convenient for him and I let him. Why? Because I’m stupid and I still have feelings for him. Anyway, every time he needs something like a ride somewhere (mainly that) or anything of that nature I give it to him and do everything I can to help him out because I’m his best friend. Especially when he drunk calls me. Lately it has been different with us. He has a thing for my (girl) best friend and she knows this. He tells me all about her every time him and I are together. He tells me how much he likes her smile and her eyes and her laugh etc. I’ve never seen him act this way about a girl before. I explained all of this to her (my girl best friend) and all she could say is wow. She has a boyfriend that she loves but her boyfriend lives in Texas and I know she has feelings for him (guy best friend). They have been talking and she doesn’t want to do anything with him because she doesn’t want to see me get hurt. All I want is for both of them to be happy. So my question(s) are…
What do I do?
Is he using me?
Do I let him be happy even though I know it’s going to hurt me?
Do I give up on him?