I’m a 14 year old girl. Typically, I have people I might idolize a little too much, usually people I don’t… Really know. Well, because I’m surrounded by people which aren’t exactly great role models. I come from a pretty shattered background, but there’s nothing to it, really. And the idolization has really grown to me for a while now, and I realize, you know, I’m molding all these superhuman-like qualities from celebrities I admire in my head, because I don’t really know how they are like, and can just assume they’re everything I’ve wanted in a person.
And I think I’ve been a little too hopeful one day I’m going to meet this one person that basically is the epitome of everything I’ve looked forward to in life. And i’ll get the happiness, securiy, and love I’ve yearned for.
Because I have a habit of letting reality hit me a little harder than it should, I understand I don’t know if this person even exists. And it’s been chewing away at my motivation to do anything anymore because this person in my head isn’t real. I’m gluing amazing personalities to flawless faces.
I’m never going to meet someone who is 101% agreeable in my mind, and yeah, fault leaves a little more room for it. But even so, it’s like… What guarantees, you know, one day I’m going to meet some person that’s going to make the rest of my days a little brighter? I’m stuck thinking I’m going to end up in a home with a bunch of cats for the rest of my life.
