Fighting depression

I know exactly how you feel. I went through the same thing a few years ago and I felt like I was fighting a losing battle everyday. The weight I carried around on my shoulders was almost unbearable. I was so afraid to live life and trust people, though, out of fear they wouldn't understand. I was just done with trying to get people to understand what I was going through. It is tough absolutely. It does not last forever, though. I know it feels like you're never going to get out from underneath this looming cloud but it will get better.The best advice I can give is to remember to remember you are not alone. Try and make an effort to everyday look at the best in every situation and remember that nobody can make you feel badly unless you let them. That includes situations. You allow things to get to you. I also think that it might be worth it to talk to a therapist in regards to the abuse you said you have gone through. That probably has a lot more to do with what you are going through than you know. If you are in school or in a big city you should check and see if there are any social group meetings you could go to and meet others who are going through the same things. It really does help to know you aren't alone even when you feel you are. I encourage you to go to church if you're the religious type and just find someone to talk to. Hang in there.