my mother left our home 5 years ago when I was 14 which, naturally, to me appeared selfish of her, and caused incredible amounts of upset and anger in me, my two older brothers and my father. every aspect of my life went downhill, I was on medication for depression, I lost my personality and became a miserable person, I needn’t go on describing my change, it’s probably typical of a boy in my situation. I have been blaming everything wrong in my life on that moment when she told me she was leaving.
I tried, so hard, to see it from her perspective. my father wasn’t abusive, but he is a horrible human being. he’s a bully. he bullies me and my brothers, and he bullied her.
the saddest thing is that I’ve been blaming her for breaking up the family. I see her maybe once a week, for maybe 2 hours. she’s my mum and I love her so much. she’s tried for years to explain that she never wanted to leave us kids but simply couldn’t stay. and I always accepted it but never understood. but now I think I do. he drove her, her the most loving of people, to leave her children. I’m only realising this now. I haven’t been this upset or confused since it all happened. I can’t write any more