To make a long story short, about a year ago I was in an amazing relationship that started to see some hard times, eventually that ended in a very unsatisfying way. Ever since I’ve always had second thoughts about everything that happened and still hold out a small bit of hope despite knowing that even the best case scenario wouldn’t fix anything. I’ve tried to move on but always fall back into a depressive slump and have begun dissociating with myself and my surroundings recently. I don’t know what to do, and almost always feel empty and unphased, sometimes I romanticize the thought of dying, almost as a form of spite. Everything feels so shallow and meaningless now and I can’t enjoy the things I used to, does anyone have any practical advice?