Everything is wrong. It’s a stressful time of school right now and I’m feeling the pressure so badly I’m so close to cracking. My school expects so much from me and I can’t live up to their standards. I feel overworked and numb and I’ve lost so much of my personality because of stress and just pure sadness. When I’m at school I respond to others’ emotions and feel okay but when I’m home I’m suddenly so alone. I’m numb and emotionless inside and I barely smile anymore. Inside my head are just awful thoughts that I can’t keep out – wanting to physically hurt people near me of they’re even slightly irritating me, thinking about failure. I constantly play scenes in my head of ripping my hair out, slicing my arms, and hanging. I said I would never resort to self harm, but now I have, and that scares me so much. It was something I was completely against just a few weeks ago and now I’m doing it. I’m angry at my friends all the time, I snap at them and just plain rude because of how angry I get so quickly. I fight with my parents all the time, they just infuriate me. On top of this are my weight issues and my obsession with dieting which hasn’t stopped since year five. I’m just a huge mix of emotions, anger, sadness, desperation, violence, emptiness, and I just cry all the time. Everything in life is just getting to me, all piling into one thing I can’t face, and I don’t know how to get out