Hello, this is my first question, I hope I’m doing this right.
To start with, I’m a 20 years old male from Sweden.
Over the past 2 years, I’ve had these weird impulsive though about escaping, moving away, from what I call “Problems”.
I don’t know what these “Problems” are, but they keep haunting me.
When I was 18, I started working instead of going to school, as I don’t like the school enviroment, I was bullied since I was 12.
I started working with my stepdad, this was fine for about 6 months.
After 6 months, I got this big urge to run away, move to another town, do something else. This was when it started.
I moved to my sister, another city, I started studying.
I got some great friends, everything worked out great, I was happy.
Over the summer vacation I took a summer job, earned some money, still feeling greater than ever. School started again, nothing.
After some months after the summer vacation it came again, I wanted to escape, I started skipping classes just doing nothing.
After a while I moved back to my hometown, I started seeing a shrink, but she didn’t help at all, she was late to meetings, ended them earlier than she should. (Our one hour appointments became half an hour appointments.)
I quit going to her, as it didn’t help me. I felt like everything was over, this was it. But something turned everything, I started searching for a job & my stepdads friend something-something hired me, out of pure luck.
I’ve been working there now for over 6 months, everything has been great.
But now I feel like running away again, I’ve called in sick for over 2 weeks, I don’t do anything.
I need help, but I don’t know what to do.