Escaping

Hello, this is my first question, I hope I’m doing this right.

To start with, I’m a 20 years old male from Sweden.
Over the past 2 years, I’ve had these weird impulsive though about escaping, moving away, from what I call “Problems”.
I don’t know what these “Problems” are, but they keep haunting me.

When I was 18, I started working instead of going to school, as I don’t like the school enviroment, I was bullied since I was 12.
I started working with my stepdad, this was fine for about 6 months.
After 6 months, I got this big urge to run away, move to another town, do something else. This was when it started.
I moved to my sister, another city, I started studying.
I got some great friends, everything worked out great, I was happy.
Over the summer vacation I took a summer job, earned some money, still feeling greater than ever. School started again, nothing.
After some months after the summer vacation it came again, I wanted to escape, I started skipping classes just doing nothing.
After a while I moved back to my hometown, I started seeing a shrink, but she didn’t help at all, she was late to meetings, ended them earlier than she should. (Our one hour appointments became half an hour appointments.)
I quit going to her, as it didn’t help me. I felt like everything was over, this was it. But something turned everything, I started searching for a job & my stepdads friend something-something hired me, out of pure luck.
I’ve been working there now for over 6 months, everything has been great.
But now I feel like running away again, I’ve called in sick for over 2 weeks, I don’t do anything.

I need help, but I don’t know what to do.

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Flux

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I will like to quote a great fictional character here - "The problem is not a problem but your attitude towards the problem is the problem"
Now nobody said life was a pie, but in truth life is gonna give you as much hell as it ever could. But the moment you choose to step up and fight it, you will began to see a light at the end of the tunnel, which we all call 'hope'. But only when you choose to fight, now it won't be easy but you can reach it. Now you said that it's almost at around the same time that you start feeling off and you need a change but you said that once you get that change you get great. So as far you are still not lost, even though you may feel like it. You don't need a change in life, what you need is a change in the perspective of life. You need to hold on to something, and not just something but that something which makes you feel alive. Now I can't tell you what that is because its yours and only yours to find.
Now look mate we eat, drink, breath and do plenty of other things, not because we want to but because we have to and we need to. Just like that your job, your family, and all the responsibility and every other thing that comes across you are the similar aspects of life. And while you do that you have to find a purpose to your living. Something that makes you, you. What I mean is, don't look for a way to spend your life, but try and find a way to live it.

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Jai

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