Ever since this incident I’ve had where I went 2 months being paranoid about being pregnant, I haven’t stopped checking my stomach and weight. I genuinely can’t go a day without feeling my stomach, it feels horribly bloated and I hate it. Before the incident, I was really happy with the appearance of my stomach. I was really happy with my weight, too, although I knew I was underweight. Then after the incident, I gained a little weight to now being 8 stone (which made me think I’m pregnant, I’m not.) and my stomach is no longer as flat as it used to be, at least I don’t think it is, but I might just be imagining things due to the extreme anxiety I’m feeling about the incident. I’m so determined to go back to my old weight that I feel like I could go back to starving myself, I know that’s not a good idea but I’m hopeless. Also, I’m only like 15, I know that me gaining weight is probably just my puberty being a pain in the back side, and deciding I’ve had enough of a flat stomach and fast metabolism. I don’t want to end up falling into some sort of eating disorder, but I feel like I’ve already hooked myself onto one and I’m obsessed over my weight already. Please help me.
Okay. First, why don't you start by taking a deep breath and realizing you aren't pregnant. You aren't. If you are having your regular periods like any other girl, then you are not pregnant! Okay? Do we have that out of our brains now? Haha good! Now next, I want you to go stand in front of the mirror and look at yourself. You were underweight before, hence you were a tiny little thing that wasn't very healthy (I am the same still and im 17!) and now you have gained the right pounds that makes you healthy! Yay! You aren't fat, you aren't overweight at 600 lbs and on one of those reality shows. hehe, you are a skinny bean my dear! And I know you may not see that, but remember...you are looking at your body from your perspective. That is WAYY different than other peoples for sure. So the way you are seeing yourself right now, is NOT trueee! You are beautiful and I don't even need to see you to know that! If you seriously feel like you're overweight, ask a loved one. Maybe if they agree you can go on a diet? otherwise I wouldn't worry!
It can be difficult when you've been through a period of time where you had a pregnancy scare. However, you're not pregnant. If you were underweight before, then it's healthy that you gained a little bit of weight. Don't concentrate so much on the number on your scale. Your weight can always fluctuate a bit. It's not healthy if you want to go back to being underweight. Starving yourself is definitely not the way to go. If you do that, then you're developing an eating disorder and you definitely don't want that. You have a healthy weight. If you start losing weight, you'll get sick. You look good just the way you are. If you really feel like you want to go on with your plans, I urge you to reach out for help. An eating disorder can have serious consequences that you definitely do not want to go through. Try to accept yourself the way you are, because you're beautiful just the way you are. If you ever need someone to talk to, feel free to message me and I'll be here to listen or to help you as best as I can.