So over the past few months I’ve been having problems with my weight: I’m 5’5 and used to weigh about 106 pounds. I absolutely hated it, being above 100 pounds. So I began skipping meals here and there, and started limiting what I was eating. I began turning down desserts and started weighing myself every day, relieved with each half pound I lost and punishing myself for every half pound I gained.
I even considered purging a few times, but couldn’t bring myself to do it. I would get down near the toilet and I couldn’t do anything but cry.
In the past 3 months I’ve dropped from 107 to 99 pounds, as of tonight…and I see a problem with it but at the same time I don’t and I’m really relieved and would love to get down as much as I can.
Anorexia is very, very serious and it can be deadly. It has destroyed thousands of lives and even though I was never diagnosed with Anorexia Nervosa, it has had a very big negative impact on my life.
If you want to lose weight, this is not the path you should talk. Instead, try to develop healthy eating habits and you can even plan out a weekly workout. You also need to consider seeking out help, talking to a guidance counselor at school, a trusted adult, your parent or guardian. It's best to deal with the issue before it forms into something much bigger, you know?
This is very mental, so you have to understand and learn that this is not worth it. It will never be worth it and while that is much easier said than done, I think you should try to surround yourself with positive energy, even if that means cutting a few friends lose. Your health, recovery and safety is a much higher priority. :)
If you need anything, if you want to talk about anything, I'm here for you! x
