Does it really get better?

I understand where you're coming from, but the best thing is that once you experience a feeling, it will go away. All feelings are not left unfelt, and some days you just want to not feel them. But that's not the solution. Talk to your boyfriend about this, or somebody happy every time you see them. The happiest people usually have thee hardest pain. How I deal with it is I go to school, see my friends and remember that they're my friends, they deal with me, they love to see my face every day, and I make them smile. This is really cheesy, but someday or already, you'll realize (or already realize) that nobody else can take the burden off your shoulders. It all depends on how much you let it get in your way. You aren't less successful than other people just because they can hide behind stone concrete masks of emotion.

Time doesnt heal all wounds, it just makes it slightly easier to deal with each day that passes...And I hope you dont really think that everyone else can just handle their traumas or stress. Youre not alone, thats the most important thing to remember. Or rather, thats what makes me feel even the slightest bit better so maybe itll put you at ease knowing that not everyone puts on their real face. Do what you have to do to get over it or ease the pain...

maybe find a therapist or psychologist to talk to! they can be really helpful.

The heading for your question is, "Does it really get better?" And the answer is no. They become DIFFERENT. Time and circumstance don't magically fall into your favor, but they are constantly changing and giving new opportunities. Things don't get better. YOU MAKE THEM BETTER. New experiences and situations will be presented to you, and it is totally up to you as to how you view them. Can this be challenging? Absolutely. I don't know your story or what happened to you, but look at what you've accomplished since then. You've got a wonderful boyfriend, and you've made it this far. Don't beat yourself up about how hard other people have it, because that's just putting yourself down and it's not true. Everyone has problems that they struggle with. Let yourself feel and sort through everything, and then you pick yourself up and make the most of the different situation time has given you.