Yes or no answer, do you think I am dull?
I never talk to anyone unless they talk to me first, My favorite color is gray because to me it symbolises equallity, I draw pictures that symbolize how I feel and let’s me say the words that I dread to come out of my mouth.. I constantly comntemplate silly things like “Why is that brick darker than the other?”, I usually meditate for hours at a time, I have to force myself to laugh, smile, sleep, eat, exc. I love to learn, help people, and write poetry and stories. I rarely feel happiness..I always feel sadness. I often forget what happiness is. I spend so much time studying people that I never talk anymore. I always know what to expect and it’s usually right. I am always tired, always depressed, always screaming inside my head for someone to help..
My sister abused me when I was young.. Because of thst I forgot what happiness felt like. I became dull.. Sadness and anger were all that I knew. At the age of six I wanted to die so I sat on my bed in 40°F weather and shivered all night long because I thought that it would kill me. People don’t know me because I am so unapprochable..
What do you think.. Am I dull? Yes or no..