I hear about people who’ve thrown out or ceremonially burned their old journals, and it sounds so freeing. And I feel like I want to do it but I don’t.
Why I want to watch my journals go up in vortices of smoke:
I feel I’m trapped in the past, and whenever I look at my journals I feel better then worse afterwards. I also think maybe sharing my innermost world with a piece of paper is giving me the illusion that I’m connecting with someone in the vague future, rather than me connecting with a fellow human being (which is difficult but suuuper rewarding, based on my one time I went to therapy)
I’ve put so much of myself into these journals, and I feel dependent on them like i can’t deal with things unless I write them down and keep them forever
Why I want to hang on to them:
There are a lot of things I’ve never told anyone and this is the only proof that this internal part of my life even exists
Journals can be useful, because I could look back at my personal development and sort of a reality check – this shitty mood lasted four days, but I could swear it lasted a month!
Now, on to you:
Have you made a decision as to whether to keep or destroy your journals? How did you feel about it?
What do you write in your journal? is it feelings and insights about yourself? Worries? Things you’ve done? Dreams for the future?
Did destroying your old journals have any effect on your ability to connect with others?
If you keep your recent journals so you can check your personal development, how far back do you keep?