I met this boy a year ago. It was online, yes. We were close, and I was trying to get over my ex… Who I now go to college with. This boy and I skyped and talked on the phone all the time. But never got to hang out in person. I was always busy or my anxiety of not being good enough sank in and I chickened out. So ultimately, he kept getting really frustrated with me. His college is 40 minutes from my house, and his home is 3 hours away. But he kept coming back. Every time he’s get mad and say he’s done with me, he’s come back. I never really liked him that way. I mean, he had girlfriends during this year, but he’d always break up with them because he felt we were always going to work out. But I had still been stuck on my ex. Hoping that he’d change his mind and come back. But I realized, he never really loved me. This other boy, really did love me. A few weeks ago, I started to realize that I actually do REALLY care about this boy, but he just got a new girlfriend. He tells me that he’s really happy and that he likes her. I’m so jealous it hurts. But he keeps complimenting me and texts/snapchats me all day, unless he’s with her. He asked me tonight if I still had feelings for him. I just said “I dunno, that would be wrong considering you’re in a relationship. Why does it matter?” In which he replied “I just wondered.” We also talked about sex. I’m a virgin, and he knows that. I jokingly told him I was going to become a slut because I suck at relationships. He brought this point up, and I said “Sleeping around isn’t really my thing, I would rather sleep with someone I knew loved me” He said, “Then why did it take so long for you to visit me?” I said “What does that have to do with our conversation?” He replied, ” You said you’d rather sleep with someone you knew loved you. Well I did earlier…” Then I felt my heart literally sink. I’m pretty sure that I love this boy, it just took me so long to realize it. But is he gone forever now? He knows all my secrets and basically everything about me… But did I realize things too late? Or could he still love me like I do him?