Can someone help me figure out what to do?

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This is going to take a while to explain, so bare with me.

There is this girl I like in my grade. The first time I met her was last year. We ended up having art together, and we started talking during through a mutual friend. We’ve been friends ever since. And up until recently, thats all we’ve been. Back in November, we started to talk about more deeper subjects. To start off talking about me, I have extreme paranoia and depression. The depression leaves me being sad all the time, and losing interest in most things. I think about suicide on a daily basis. However, I can’t talk to anybody about this problem because of my paranoia. I’m scared all the time and I question most things. These problems are the reason that I started to cut my wrist and started to drink. I’ve also started to eat less.

As for her, she is also depressed. She is always down on herself because she feels she can’t live up to peoples expectations. She cant be the perfect girl she wants to be so she always hates herself for it. She doesn’t think she is skinny enough, or beautiful enough, or social enough. This is the reason she started cutting, drinking, and taking prescription medication.

After we started talking about these issues with each other, we started to help each other through these problems. I’ve been getting better. I haven’t drank since early December, and I haven;t cut since mid-December. She hasn’t taken prescription meds or drank since early December. However, she still cuts and I still barely eat. We are both still trying to help each other through these issues.

We found out that we both had crushes on each other last year, but didn’t say anything to each other because we were scared how the other would respond. I still like her, but I’m not sure if she still likes me anymore. I go over to her house often and we usually cuddle on the couch while watching movies. While we were talking one time, she said that she considered kissing me while we were cuddling.

We still talk everyday about personal things, things that I couldn’t talk to anybody else about. We do argue from time to time, but its usually when one of us does something to hurt ourselves, then we argue over why they did it and why they should stop. So to sum it up, this girl and I are both pretty messed up, and we are tying to help each other. I really like her, but I don’t know if she still likes me. We hang out all the time, and we cuddle all the time. She means the world to me. I have no idea what to in this relationship, or if she even likes me. I don’t know what to do. I need help figuring out what to do and how to continue with my life.

Category: asked January 20, 2014

2 Answers

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Normally I would say to text her and ask her or like Pinkyhell, to kiss her, but with anxiety, I understand you can't 'just kiss her'. It's not that simple. What we used to do in school was get our mutual friends to find out for us. Ask your mutual friend to talk to her and as subtly as they can, bring you into the conversation. Then your friend can hopefully get the juice! I hope things work out for you two.
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try to kiss her.