I, messed up. I don’t have a high enough gpa to go to medical school. I worked my ass off but, it wasn’t enough. The thing I figured out was that I was so focused on pleasure. What I mean by pleasure is sex but, all enjoyable things like watching tv. I did work but, ultimatley I like to have pleasure.
Like for instance I wanted a girlfriend for the longest time, I waited for the right girl but, since I am short (5’4) I couldn’t get anyone .. Its been almost 2 centuries and still can’t find anyone. I was so stupid that I almost went on criaglist. But, as you see pleasure consumes me and takes up my time. My need for pleasure more like wanting it caused my problems. Why do I constantly seek pleasure? I know that I am not a robot and that I should take a break every so often but, my wants are too much. (mostly just want sex)
My need to seek and fine pleasure caused me to not work hard enough, now I need to know why I seek it out. Should I just go on criaglist and just end my suffering? I don’t know why my focus is on pleasure, and I don’t want to cut it out of my life for some reason.