Hey I just need someone to vent to in hopes that somebody understands. I suffer from anxiety and sometimes I get bad panic attacks. And tonight I went through a really bad one. I started crying and started getting shaky and my voice was stuttering and I got very paranoid and worried. ((Thus, panic attack.)) And I was on Skype with my boyfriend. (( We’re in a LDR. )) And when I started to cry before I could get to explain what was wrong. He heard me sniffling and starting to cry and he said be right back so I thought okay he needs to use the bathroom or grab a drink or something. And then I heard him talking and joking around with his Mom in the background in what sounded like a regular conversation. (( Keep in mind I was crying at this point and he knew.)) Then when he finally came back I mentioned that I heard him talking and joking around with his Mom when he knew I was crying. And I asked why he randomly left. He said to get my jacket. Then I talked about my panic attack and he’s like well most dramatic people get like that and I said what do you mean. And he’s like well overly sensitive dramatic etc. And I said I wasn’t being dramatic I was talking about my panic attack because I went to the Dr today about health concerns and I’ve been feeling like crap lately. I might be hypoglycemic and have to get blood work done soon. And I’ve been stressed about other stuff and just needed my boyfriend to be there for me while I was in my panic attack. When I asked if he could just listen and understand. I looked up a link on my phone and sent him it so he could read about it in case he didn’t know. He was like well I skimmed through part of it and don’t care to read all of it because I already know what I need to know. (( He told me he has never experienced one before.)) And other times when I have an anxiety issue or cry or anything he says brb then I hear him talking about me to his Mom in the background where I can hear. And other times when I come to him for support he’ll be like well I don’t understand what the big deal is. And I’m very much a feminist and he knows certain words trigger me but sometimes in the background his mom will be watching tv and he’ll just openly call people sluts and whores and stuff. I told him it makes me uncomfortable and he said it’s not a big deal. Any help advice would be appreciated. Thank you. And also wanted to add that I’m always here for him and would never ever ever do those things to him because I know how it feels.
