Binging after anorexia?


When I was about 13/14 I lost a lot of weight and lost my menstrual cycle. No one commented on my weight in the first place, no one ever called me fat, but I also struggle with social anxiety and I feel like that has something to do with it. I had to move schools because my mum couldn’t afford to pay the fees anymore (I went to a private school for 11 years, but only because my mum was a teacher there so the fees were a lot cheaper – I’m not rich, nowhere near). After only experiencing a school with fewer than 200 people in it for 11 years, going to a state school with 1000 people in it was terrifying, especially with the anxiety. My new uniform was very loose on me and it made me self conscious. So along with my mum threatening to take me to a doctor unless I ate more, I started gaining weight again. I gained it slowly at first, but then this year my mum got a new job 3 hours away from where we lived, so we moved. I’m away from any friends I’ve had the courage to make and my new house makes me really uncomfortable – my bedroom looks like the type of room you would stereo typically expect a sex offender to hold someone hostage(sorry if that seems insensitive, but it paints an accurate image of how bad I feel). Since I found out about having to move, I’ve been binge eating. And now that I’ve moved, I’m still doing it. But I still have the same thoughts from when I lost weight, which means I’m obsessive about losing weight yet I can’t stop putting it on because eating has become a form of comfort – so all I want to do is be skinny again. I need to know if anyone else has gone through bingeing after anorexia, and whether while you’re doing it, you still have the same level of obsessiveness with losing weight and the same self-hatred of your body? If anyone has gone through this, did you manage to stop and lose weight again?

Category: Tags: asked November 17, 2014

1 Answer

I'm going to start off by demanding you change your name from Pathetic Excuse for a Teenager to I'm A Beautiful and I Now Know It. Now that that is over with I can honestly say that I have never been anorexic, but I know a lot of people that have and are. I on the other hand am a binge eater. I can tell you that the only way to stop binge eating is to do it slowly. You have become used to eating more often and in larger quantities, which if suddenly stopped will make your life a living hell. The hunger pains that come with "cutting cold turkey" are crazy. Now about your anorexia I will personally vouch that you are a beautiful young woman. If I had to give my opinion after only two years of Psychology I would say that you are under too much stress and are experiencing something called "Relocation Anxiety" You have to learn to deal with the fact that you are in a new place, and you need to see that nothing you can do will change that. Once you realize that you will understand that the eating is a coping mechanism, and that to stop it you need to accept your situation and do what is within your power to change it. If you want more personalized advice, message me