so now my biggest addiction is the fault in our stars(seems crazy but yea), i’v read the book and waited 3 months till the film is realest, my mom promised me to go watch it but now she just say no because she is busy and then i told her i will go alone then she told me i cant leave you alone because you are too young and then she told maybe you should go with friends, actually i don’t have. so there is only one solution and that i can go with mom and she is busy so, i cant go. which is so disappointing because i’ve waited 3 months!! and then i cant even see it..
i thought maybe i could download it and watch it on my computer, and bring some popcorn and stuff, like i can make my own happiness, but it still would be depressing. and my happiness would not be the same as when i can go see it in the cinema.
its just disappointing, when you wait for something you really like and then its gone,when people promise you something and then they broke it. when you make your own happiness but you still not happy, when you are left with no friends, its just depressing.
also what really make me deppresed that i am in 3 months vacation, only one month left, in the other 2 months, i spend them in home!! which make me wanna cry all the time.
i want to go out and spend my summer but mom is busy, i am too young to get out alone, friends are not my friends anymore.. any help? [please]
THE POINT IS THAT I WANT SOMETHING AND CANT HAVE IT