I did read a lot of books when i was depressed and lonely, it was an escape into a different reality, but something did happen that made me tick at wanting more in my life just like in the books. Just know that depression is just a word and it's much more than that, like low self-esteem, poor confidence, a negative mindset, its like a bag to simplify a very complex feeling. It's good to acknowledge yourself and walk towards improving yourself, a good start would be a journal to write down and hold all your feelings, your goals and your dreams, so you won't forget them, so that you can always flip it back open whenever your feeling down to remind yourself who you were in the past and maybe become your own hero again