Anyone on college and suffering depression and anxiety?
I’m in college and I suffer depression and anxiety I just want to know if anyone is in this same situation. I want to know your experiences and how you get trough this. What hepls you and what triggers your problems…
I'm at boarding school for my senior year of high school but it's basically the same. I live in a dorm, eat off the meal plan, don't have a car, ect. I used to suffer from severe depression and self harm for 5 years and just recently overcame it.
When I first got to school I was the most depressed I had ever been in my entire life. I found a corner behind one of the buildings on campus and would sit there until curfew and cry. Late at night I would hide out in the bathrooms and cry too..I felt so alone and I would be hard on myself about it. I would criticize the fact that I had no friends and it was all my fault and my mind would tear me to shreds. I let the silence come at me as a bad thing.
I started going to therapy at the Health Center on campus and honestly it was the best thing I could ever do. She and I would set up small, mini goals for me to accomplish every week. For example, one of my goals was for me to start a conversation with two people I didn't know and to actually talk to them, not just the "how are you" part. Having a goal and something to accomplish really helped overcome my fear of engaging people in a conversation.
Soon enough I realized that the only friend I really needed was me. I became my own best friend and welcomed the silence. I turned all the things that really bothered me around in to something positive. I use the silence to read a good book, find new music, chill with my dog, paint, watch endless marathons of House, cook, and the list goes on. I find that I have more fun hanging out with myself than anyone else.
You can do this, and it gets better. Be kind and forgive yourself, you're only human too :) and if you need to message me please do, I'm here if you need to talk or just need a friend
I got so depressed I had to drop out. I was diagnosed with Bipolar 1 and Borderline Personality Disorder upon dropping out, so that made it more difficult to ever want to go back. I'm still deciding if school is a good idea, but I love the idea of having a goal to fulfill. It is just a matter of time management and making sure you force yourself to focus even if you don't want to. Finding new music had been my favorite release and of course knowing I got to go home and snuggle my cat after I got home helped me get through the semesters I did actually finish.