Thank you all for your responses:I cope alone, because I have no friend or family members who "understands me" per-say...
I feel like I've been alone my entire life, yet i'm only twenty.
Days consist of: Working and being at home. That's it..
The occasional buddy will invite me out, but all we do is get high...
I can blab forever.. Point: There are 360 degrees, and I never know which way I should be facing. A little reassurance or friendly advice would be nice, but I don't have that. I'm in the dark. I get scared sometimes.
Sure I have this site and others with amazingly positive people, yet It all feels the same. It all feels automatic. This site can only cure the itch for so long. You can only help someone so much with your text.
I feel misunderstood and no one I communicate with seems to like the idea of me. I don't either.
I know I should be more positive in all this, yet I keep getting eaten up. Iv'e had one relationship so far, and from that I've learned. I truly want my one and only. I believe that's all you really need as far as companionship, just one other. To run the earth together, to love, to live, to grow. Yet the older I get the more I see, and the more I believe in my doubts.
I can't decide weather this is a cry for help or gunk on my chest..
Regardless, Thank you for reading.
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