So I guess you could say I’m addicted to sadness. I love when I’m not sad although I feel scared whenever I am happy because I know it can be taken away from me in a flash. Although I don’t love being sad I’ve become so comfortable with it its crazy. Like I want to die but I don’t want to kill myself. I just kind of want to disappear for a bit. I know my family and friends love me I just don’t understand how I can still be sad. Any advice to help me get through this tough time?
This feel is quite common with depression, I felt it too. But when you feel happy, enjoy it. Live it up. Don't be scared, as fast as it goes away, it can come back. It's something you always have, you just need to learn how to feel it and get to know yourself and be comfortable with it. You deserve to be happy, being happy is great. Talking to a professional might help, they can help you break through this feeling and make recovering so much easier. Take care. I hope this helps.
I would ask yourself when this fear began. Maybe there is some experience or multiple experiences that triggered it for you. Could be someone dying or getting your heart broken in various ways. Once you understand the reasons I think it helps in dealing with it.
I was never able to put feelings like this in such words. You took everything right out of my mouth... and heart.
Although I let it off as being masochistic..but as comfortable as it may be it really does hurt to feel all of this...
Despite it all, all the effort it takes to climb up to being happy should be just as easy as falling back down to the sadness. So just enjoy that time, try not to fall. Get up and get happy, please. ^^
Do not ever think life is so cruel that you want your life to end. You are an amazing person inside and out. Sure people in today's generation does not accept of certain and people, and then approve of others, but that doesn't mean you deserve to have so much depression in your life. Do not be scared to be happy, enjoy what you have for that time being and let it take over, happiness is something that you shouldn't have to work for but have it come naturally. Don't get comfortable with being sad all the time, try and push for better outcomes and just think positive. You can do this.
Actually these all help out a lot more than y'all may think.. I guess I'm just finally letting everything get to me now.. I'm not sure. I really wish i could talk to y'all in private as it seems like y'all have really great advice haha..