It's sort of selfish, yes. I understand that you can't help wanting something, but I doubt you'll find something like that. For a while, that was what my fiance wanted to. I was hopelessly in love with her and did my best to give her space (I was her best friend at the time, even though she knew I was in love with her.) I had to watch her fall in love with other people and do my best not to be jealous, but when I started to become interested in someone else, all hell broke loose. It was a miserable way to live and sometimes I just felt stuck. She finally came around and we're in a loving, trusting relationship and things are much better. Just keep in mind that a relationship like that would really mess with the other person.
