Long story short im dealing with depression for the 2nd time in my life. I’ve dealt with depression for over 2 years from the ages of 15 to 18. Just recently things in my life have taken a turn for the worst. I feel so alone, betrayed, the emotions just go on and on. Im on anti deoressants but ive nevr found one that has worked for me, they just numb me out and i feel worse then before when they wear off. For the past month an a half or so I’ve been drinking a lot, taking a bit of acid, but recently I’ve been taking a lot of mdma as well. I know it’s not the best way to deal with my problems but its how I do it. Im confident that if it wasn’t for me drinking and taking drugs id be a lot more depressed.
So do you think I have a drinking or drug problem, is it normal for me to do this, am I developing one, and if so how can I stop it and take some better steps forward?