Am i afraid of commitment?

I don't think your scared of commitment, you obviously had a relationship with the same person for years. You might just be scared to get hurt again.

Hi Cait,It sounds like you've had some bad experiences in terms of being hurt by guys that you have loved in the past. Usually it's bad enough to have this happen once to someone, but it's happened to you three times in a row, and it sounds like it is of no fault of your own. My advice is to not let it shape your opinion of dating, or of guys in general, because there are a lot of great people out there and I am sure you will find someone who is perfect for you. Unfortunately, that means putting yourself out there, and sometimes people do get hurt in the process. I didn't catch how old you are, but it sounds like you are still pretty young with a lot of life ahead of you. I suspect you will find that guys mature as they get older, so you're (hopefully) more likely to meet someone who isn't going to be as immature as some of the guys who hurt you in the past.

My honest opinion is to not dwell on it. if you're scared of a commitment then that's fine, lots of people are like that. we're like that because we haven't found someone worth trusting. keep an open mind to meet and date new people, don't blow them off just 'cause without a reason. eventually you'll find someone that naturally makes you comfortable and find that happy place.