I have turned into in my opinion a liar, a fake, i have become weak and selfish and i hurt people, what do i do, i hate myself for who i have become and i font want to be this person anymore, i think of suicide all the time but i never do it… maybe i deserve it!?!?!?!
Honesty is liberating. Next time a situation occurs where you would lie, don't. It's easier to be honest because you don't ever have to keep track of all your stories. Just be careful, many people don't like the truth, it can be harsh. No ones stopping you from waking up tomorrow and being a completely different person, except you.