I feel myself alone in a crowd of people. I am fed up with most of the things in life. With other people. its that if i don’t make an effort to be in contact with the other person then there won’t be a conncetion between us. i know that i have to make an effort by myself but i expect the other person to also make an effort. i don’t call them or message them, it will be as though i don’t even exist.
i therefore choose to be with myself and that is fine with me but sometimes i feel myself like too alone. i don’t know what i am supposed to do. i feel like i dont even exist for other people. i don’t really care about that either but sometimes it really pains that there is not a single person who cares. no one close enough who would care. what am i supposed to do?