I recently fell into one of my old depressions. It has been years since I have felt this way. Everything started when i broke up with my girlfriend of 2 years. I cared for her a lot but my problems needed to be worked on and i was unable to because we enabled each other. She also was rather clingy and despite telling her i needed some time to myself to work out what was going on in my head she ignored it. So I ended it, which took a few attempts because she did not accept what was going on.
As the summer progressed I ran into some more problems and i moved twice. During the move I felt like i was loosing sanity. I was not living in a good place and i had lost the person who i truly loved so i broke down. When I moved to the new place i was able to work on some of my problems with success. As of recent I hit a hard wall and the problems that i had resolved came back.
This wall has been a big problem becuase my life spills out at work and i have missed days becuase I have a hard time getting myself out of bed. I have been getting out of my apartment and trying to keep myself going to help but this has been one of the hardest struggles since i learned recently I have a hard time communicating with people. I tend to use vauge terms to describe what i am trying to convey towards who i am talking to. So my conversations have not gone so well.
I want to see the light at the end of the tunnel and break free from this depression. I don’t want to wallow and feel bad but I cannot break free from it but there are so many problems to work on I don’t know who to turn to. I don’t want to burden my friends and co-workers because they shouldn’t have to deal with their problems and mine.