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    YourLocalFlower posted an update in the group Group logoVent It! 3 years, 7 months ago

    Sorry if this is alot-
    I wish I could just go somewhere else and disappear. Like, get lost at sea or in a forest or something like that. I hate myself so much. What the fuck s wrong with me. What is wrong with me what is wrong with me what is wrong with me what is wrong with me. Why am I like this? Why am I so messed up? What is wrong with me? I don’t understand. I have good friends who care about me and my family is trying their best but why, WHY DO I FEEL LIKE THIS? WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME? I don’t understand. Life is good, right? I’m supposed to be a happy girl, with a happy boyfriend and happy friends doing happy sports and going home to a happy family. So why, why, why do I feel like I want, no, I need to leave. Like it feels wrong that I’m alive, that I’m not needed. What the fuck is wrong with me. God, I want to leave so much. I feel so invisible yet so seen. I hate it. I hate life. I hate being alive and that all I do is complain or talk about how much I want to die. That’s all there is to me now. I’m just a fucking hollow shell of desire to fucking die. That’s all I dream about you know, finally ending it all and being happy for once. But then I wake up and it all feels so fake.

    • Please don’t let depression, pain and sadness get you down @yourlocalflower, you are a wonderful person who deserves to feel happy and lead a truly successful and awesome life, you will beat all the hard times and come out so much stronger, hold your head up high, keep fighting and look towards your bright future that is filled with so much hope, everything will go your way and you will make all your dreams come true, believe in yourself and never give up, you can do it, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone :) (hugs)

    • I’m so sorry you feel this way. Many of us do, that is why we are here for you. Don’t hesitate to ever contact people here if you need to vent or express very valid and intense feelings. You deserve to feel good and be happy with life, it is good you have people who care, but what matters is how you feel deep down. This is a battle you are fighting and I know you can win.