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    finnian posted an update 4 years, 7 months ago

    im sad, what else is new
    I can barely eat anymore
    I’ve already lost 10 pounds
    I can’t get on my medication because insurance, doctors, appointments, and work are all cluster fucked. Everything seems so impossible right now.
    I am alone. I am always alone.
    I need a friend. I need someone. I wish I wasn’t so alone. I don’t know what’s wrong with me,…[Read more]

    • Please don’t feel sad @peiyopei, everything will be OK and things will work out for you Finnian, do eat, stay healthy and take care of yourself, I want to see you smiling and surrounding yourself with love, positivity and hope Finnian, I don’t want to ever see you feeling alone, you are amongst friends in this community Finnian, everyone on BT…[Read more]

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    Lels posted an update 4 years, 8 months ago

    I often read something like “trying to avoid hurting another person in a relationship is an impossible task” or “accept that in relationships you will get hurt and you will eventually hurt another person” and that’s considered to be normal. People accept that pain is inevitable and join relationships despite the fear. However, if pain is…[Read more]

    • No one deserves to be in pain either by themselves or while in a relationship @lelslessing, we all truly deserve to feel positive, happy and wonderful so we can better ourselves and support each other every day, I want to see you feeling fantastic Lels and being the best person you can be, remember to smile brightly and know you are awesome,…[Read more]

    • Thank you Oli, thank you for being the light.

    • Thank you Oli, thank you for being the light.

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    Lels posted an update 4 years, 8 months ago

    The more I learn about myself, the less I believe that I am capable of building an emotionally and physically intimate relationship with another person. I manage to maintain peace with myself, and even though I sometimes feel lonely, I accept that feeling as a part of the journey. I remind myself that it’s possible to feel lonely in a…[Read more]

    Mood : Numb
    • We all deserve strong, intimate and loving relationships with other human-beings @lelslessing, you do too Lels, don’t let loneliness break you Lels, do your best to stay upbeat and surround yourself with compassion and positivity, true happiness and love will happen to you Lels, one day you will meet your soulmate Lels, someone amazing is out…[Read more]

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    Lels posted an update 4 years, 8 months ago

    I often feel good when I am busy with tasks or projects that I love. But when the project is over and I come home I often feel extremely lonely. I think it’s the contrast between a busy time + being surrounded by people that makes the times right after that feel lonely. I do remind myself that I am consciously choosing not to pursue close…[Read more]

    Mood : Alone
    • Please don’t feel lonely @lelslessing, do stay busy with projects and things that keep you occupied Lels, but do surround yourself with compassionate people and things that bring a wonderful smile to your face, we all deserve wonderful relationships with another human-beings, you do too Lels, I want to see you happy and living a life that is…[Read more]

    • Thank you so much for your kindness and support Oli! Please message me too if you want to chat! I appreciate you so much!

    • @Oli thank you so much!!!

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    Lels posted an update 4 years, 8 months ago

    Today was challenging. I took a Mental Health First Aid training which I wanted to do, and I guess I learned a lot and in general it was a good training, but it triggered a lot of my own mental health needs. Listening about all of that for 7 hours was just too much for me today. I am reminding myself to take it one day at a time. I can probably…[Read more]

    Mood : Sad
    • It’s great that you took Mental Health training @lelslessing, do use your knowledge to help others and take care of yourself, I’m so sorry that the training made you feel upset and sad, I would try to relax and calm yourself as best you can sweetie, focus on your own happiness and making yourself feel positive and upbeat, everything will be OK…[Read more]

    • Thank you so much Oli! It’s so nice to hear your encouraging words! Thank you so much for being here and for the offer to message you to chat! Have a great day / week, and thank you so much for all your support!

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    Lels posted an update 4 years, 9 months ago

    Blahtherapy is awesome and has helped me so many times. Idk what I would do without you guys! Thank you so much to everyone who is venting, listening, securing the work of the website, and to everyone who is a part of the community here. <3

    • I can’t figure out how to get to the venting to stranger

    • I think right now there is a temporary glitch in the chat, because I can’t seem to enter the chat as well. I recommend to try later :)

    • Glad to see that BT has helped you so much @lelslessing, we are all so blessed to have you here as a member, please know the BT community will always be for you and so will I, you are awesome Lels, always be the fantastic person that you are, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone :) (hugs)

    • Hi Oli, thank you so much as always for your kindness! (hugs back)

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    Lels posted an update 4 years, 9 months ago

    I’m saying we all who have an extra $1 could donate it to blahtherapy to help them secure the work of the chat servers :D is there a donate button here? :)

    Mood : Hopeful
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    Katherine and Profile picture of rhearhea are now friends 4 years, 10 months ago

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    finnian posted an update 4 years, 10 months ago

    i have been having very strong urges to self harm again. I want to so badly. I haven’t felt this bad in a long time. I feel so empty. Nothing matters to me anymore right now. I need to do something to distract myself but nothing is working. I really just want to be held but I don’t have anybody ever I’m so alone I hate it hate it hate it hate it
    I…[Read more]

    • Please don’t harm yourself @peiyopei, you are such a fantastic, awesome and special person who deserves to feel positive and happy, do surround yourself with things that bring a smile to your face Finnian, distract yourself with activities that make you upbeat and keep you busy, please don’t feel lonely, everyone deserves compassionate friends…[Read more]

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    finnian posted an update 4 years, 10 months ago

    really truly my life is going back to shit and why wouldn’t it
    I had to leave my clinic job, I miss them all so fucking much and I can’t return because I really fucked myself. I didn’t have a job for almost two months which sent me down this spiral of feeling totally worthless.
    My boyfriend is burning himself , I can’t fuxking stand that shit. It…[Read more]

    • Please don’t let life’s struggles get you down @peiyopei, things will work out for you Finnian and everything will be OK, I’m sure you will find another job or you may get your clinic job back, try to stay positive and surround yourself with happiness, do look after yourself mentally, emotionally and physically Finnian, take care of yourself…[Read more]

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    Kale joined the group Group logoMissed Connections 4 years, 11 months ago

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    Katherine and Profile picture of CoccinelleCoccinelle are now friends 4 years, 11 months ago

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    Coccinelle and Profile picture of HaydenHayden are now friends 4 years, 11 months ago

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    Coccinelle posted an update 4 years, 11 months ago

    Dear everyone,
    Right now, I am willing to learn a new language. If you or someone you know is willing to help me learning a new language (except latin languages), please message me. I can learn you my language (Albanian) too.

    Mood : Exhausted
    • I’m sure you will find a new wonderful language to learn @lolu, personally I would like to learn a number of languages, but I’m such a slow learner and I don’t remember things well, hope you manage to find a good language to learn, stay positive and keep going forward, you can do it, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong,…[Read more]

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    Coccinelle posted an update 4 years, 11 months ago

    Wow! After 3 years, I am back to BTh. I have been thru a lot, but always remembered the good times and people who helped me here.

    Mood : Happy
    • It’s great to see you back on BT @lolu, indeed you have been through a lot and are still here, it truly shows how strong, brave, beautiful and courageous you are, hope everything is going well in your life, always be the awesome, incredible and special person that you are, keep smiling and always shine brightly, you can do it, inbox me anytime if…[Read more]

    • @Lolu

      Welcome back to the community. :) A lot less active around here than it used to be, but everyone is still just as friendly and helpful.

    • Thank you a lot, Oli. It is my pleasure to have such a good friend like you. Always happy to be here. psttt I will be here now all the time. Whenever you want, we can chat or vent. Hugs!

    • Thanks a lot. It is my pleasure to come back here and seeing this kind of messages.

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    mini_beethoven answered question “i still have feelings but idk, help please !5 years, 1 month ago

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    mini_beethoven posted an update 5 years, 1 month ago

    My grandfather passed away last night. I was there when he died. I know it’s normal for me to grieve, but I feel guilty because I am jealous of how he treated and spend time with his other grandchildren. I’m just shocked by how quick everything transpired last night and also not looking forward to the events in the near future with the funeral.

    • I’m so sorry for your loss @kittymew, do remember all the happy moments you spent with your grandfather, all the times you laughed together and he made you happy Kayla, hope you managed to spend some time with him before he passed sweetie, be strong Kayla, you will make it through this, I’m always here if you need to talk, inbox me anytime, you…[Read more]

    • It’s not uncommon to have mixed feelings in these situations. Don’t feel bad about it @kittymew. When a beloved one passes away, we usually remember every moment and experience with them, and that involves good memories and bad memories. It’s going to be hard, but you’ll go through this. Take all the time you need to process everything that…[Read more]

    • I’m so sorry for your loss. I am sending you love and am here for you if you ever need to talk. This will be a hard time, but you will get through it because you are strong and courageous. ♥

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    finnian posted an update 5 years, 2 months ago

    hi hi, i did something kinda,,, bad and I am sorry. but i love my bf. is it too soon to say it?? i cna feel my lips trying to push it out and in some instances i just want to fucking squeeze him and tell him that he means everything to me, truly. at least in this moment he does, and i hope he continues to be for a long time. he’s so sweet, so…[Read more]

    • I would tell your boyfriend how you feel @peiyopei, let him know you care about him so much and want to strengthen your relationship, I’m sure he loves you back just as equally Finnian, be as honest and open with him as you can, hope everything works out, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone :) (hugs)

    • It’s fantastic to read that you feel so happy by your partner’s side, @peiyopei! Let him know that you love him, and how great he makes you feel. I’m sure he loves you back the same! Stay awesome!

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    finnian posted an update 5 years, 3 months ago

    In the past two months my life has drastically improved.
    I’ve met someone who actually lives with me now (it’s a personal reason why), and now we’re kinda dating?? It’s so weird but I feel very comfortable with him and I never thought I’d able to just fall back into a relationship so easily. I have been single for a long time and I think…[Read more]

    • It’s great to see you happy and in a wonderful relationship with your partner @peiyopei, you are truly a fantastic person who deserves all the best Finnian, hope everything continues going awesomely for you, I’m sure you will manage to see a doctor, always look after yourself, keep going forward and never give up, you can do it Finnian, inbox me…[Read more]

    • It’s lovely that you are in a nice relationship, and that you feel comfortable with your partner, @peiyopei! I know you’ll manage to make and appointment with your doctor; gather strenght and take time, you’ll do it! I hope everything continues going as good for you. Keep fighting and don’t give up, you are awesome!

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