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    Spectrolite7 posted an update 3 years, 3 months ago

    I just feel like I’ve been overthinking… I gotta stop but because of being on the spectrum.. I’m kind of unable to relax.. if I do try, it shows up as me laying in bed, unable to move or do anything or care for myself. I would like to relax and be out and about but I feel stressed when I do that. I know that I can live my life and be easy about everything but at this point I feel like nothing makes sense anymore.. my age, where I’m at doesn’t make sense. Life almost feels like it’s just not important anymore.. I guess nothing matters.. one day I’ll be more better.. it feels like a process of my body working to make the dreams come true. I don’t have any control… nothing matters.. I’m just living, existing, and it’s time to relax by not worrying at all and simplifying my life and how I handle situations. if anything bothers me, walk away… stop trying to make it better by saying anything to try to control it and instead, just express your dislike by walking away and not putting to much emphasis on the situation. I’m done with trying to change how I come across to people or how people view me.. I just have to relax and be. I don’t like that I am kind of scattered in the way that I am unstable when it comes to self expression in certain areas. I’m done with everything.. i tend to feel an urge to hurt myself because of my inability to relax.. but I know that’s not right.. I don’t have to do anything anymore and I think that I’m just ready to reach a new level of life by not caring about anything… I think I’m going to start accepting donations as a way to help me do more things in life to enjoy it. My mind tends to complicate things by overthinking. It gets on my nerves. I am going to be just fine.

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    • I don’t want to see you feeling overwhelmed, stressed and upset @spectrolite7, stay upbeat and focus on making yourself feel positive, relaxed and happy, please don’t hurt yourself, make each day as bright as you can and remember to always smile, everything will be OK and things will get better, always be kind to and believe in yourself, you can do it, hold your head up high, keep going forward with optimism and never give up, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone :) (hugs)

    • Thanks @oliver I’m doing my best. I feel tired and depressed, I don’t want to do anything. I think I can probably wither away in my own home.. I hope that doesn’t happen. I’m just going to take it easy.