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    Spectrolite7 posted an update 3 years, 9 months ago

    what I went through recently, caused me to cry for hours nonstop because it wasn’t in my control but I got treated in a way that was rude and I was humiliated and kicked out of place because of something I didn’t know how to handle. I’m someone who chooses to love instead of hate and keep my heart light. I have friends of many ages… Someone once told me that I don’t have any friends… and I’ve been told by a supposed psychic at a time that I would go through really bad situation because of what I did in a past life… she manipulated me into having a psychic session with her, even though I told her 3 times I didn’t want to do it, she kept talking anyway, even though I didn’t want to go through with the session, all she wanted was to take my money, she told me I had to pay $300 for something that would help me, when I said no, she started saying really bad things to me and started yelling at me in front of a friend… It seems like I’m a kind person and some people use that to try to take advantage and get something from me… I deserve to live my life, knowing that I deserve to be happy, healthy, to live joyously and successfully. Certain things, or reactions that people had, have caused me to feel like I was unsafe in this world and that nothing would go right in my life. I know that this isn’t right and that I do deserve happiness… I feel like I’m done meeting with people because I don’t want to be hurt anymore… I feel like I can’t take anymore and that I can only be around my own surroundings. I feel like maybe it’s better to be by myself and focus on things that can bring me joy… My tolerance for pain has gotten very low… I don’t deserve to go through any suffering.

    • I’m in the same boat with you on that one. I’m very reserved and it makes me a vulnerable person for people to prey on. This is why I keep one close online friend, otherwise I grew to accept that I didn’t really want more than I have.

      You don’t deserve to feel more pain, for sure. And sometimes you’re just going to need time to yourself so that you can learn to trust people again. Making friends is pretty tough nowadays. The internet is full of people but a good chunk are all bad.

      If you need someone to talk to though, if the mood arises, feel free to inbox me.

    • I’m so sorry that happened to you @spectrolite7, that horrible woman had no right taking advantage of you, I want to see you feeling truly happy and being around positivity, you are such a special, incredible and awesome person who deserves to feel wonderful and loved, please know that the BT community will always be here for you and so will I, you are such a valued and appreciated member of this community, everything will be OK and things will work out for you, always be kind to yourself, keep going forward and never give up, you can do it, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone :) (hugs)