Spectrolite7 posted an update 10 months, 1 week ago
I’m a special being.. I am love… there’s nothing to fear yet I am fearful of some things… why? Why must my past haunt me so much? I totally fucked up because of my own unawareness but at the same time, my reaction was so natural. I did it because at that time I felt in my heart I didn’t know what to do or react so the reaction that was the most natural came to me and that was to shut down… shut down multiple times in multiple experiences… but I am love and all I wanted was to love but received hate because of fear, other’s unawareness. Why must I feel so haunted? I don’t understand but I’m trying to open up myself and not hinder the love and still maintain my power. I have to trust myself.