I'm 19 years old from nyc and I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder at the age of 15. I've been through a lot in my life, maybe not as much as others but for me it's a lot and I feel it's forced me to grow up at such a young age. Sometimes when I'm crying or just feeling so depressed I wonder if there is a reason or if its cause of my bipolar disorder. I don't have many people I feel comfortable talking to, and those I do are either moving far away or are always busy. I do think of suicide but I never think of how to commit suicide. I haven't tried to harm myself in a very long time and I'm proud of myself for that. I'm just feeling lost and hurt and I think it would help to have someone there to talk to.