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    Silent Crescendo posted an update 3 years ago

    I just lost the love of my life after 10 years of friendship, 3 of which we dated for. After thinking about things for a while, I think I wore him down after months of increased anxiety, insecurity, worry and added depression. He had his own issues but I feel like I ruined the one good thing I have. He was my first, and I wanted him to be my last. I’m crushed, at a time where I’m at my lowest, but I want to get better. And I don’t know if I want to get him back when we check in months from now, or if I should move on. All I know is that I love and hate him, right now. I can still remember his little smile, the way his eyes crinkled up when he was happy, his silly laugh, how I felt safe in his arms…and all those memories hurt…Everything reminds me of him and I feel so, so alone…Everyone says time will make things better…but right now it just feels as if my world has collapsed…

    Mood : Depressed
    • Oli replied 3 years ago

      Please don’t give up on true love @shadowstep, hopefully you can still remain good friends with him, I would do what you feel is best for you, maybe you will get back together with him one day, everyone deserves a strong, close and loving bond with another person, you do too, try to stay positive and know you deserve to be loved, cared for and looked after by a wonderful partner, everything will work out for you, please keep going and know so much brightness lies ahead for you, never give up, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone :) (hugs)

    • Thank you, man. I am incredibly lucky to have full support from my parents and that they’re letting me take a break from school to focus on me, my mental health. I’m mad at him for saying I can never get better, and I will prove him wrong and myself right. I know I can, with work and time. After that, we’ll see if I still feel as if I need him in my life.

    • Oli replied 3 years ago

      You will prove him wrong @shadowstep, he has absolutely no right to say you will never get better, he should have been caring, supportive and loving towards you, you will do amazingly in your life, you will make the right decision about this relationship and you will make all your dreams come true, everything will be OK, go forward with hope, stay upbeat and never give up, you can do it, inbox me anytime if you want to chat or vent, stay strong, you are never alone :) (hugs)

    • I’m so sorry to hear that @shadowstep. You deserve the support of your loved ones, so don’t think you’ve ruined it. We must take care and help each other when in need. Take as time as you need to focus on your health and yourself, to feel calm at a ease. You’ll get better, you are strong and determinate, never doubt it! If you need to chat or vent, my inbox is open. Don’t give up! <3