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Display Name	RyanFromRiannon
About Me	My name that I was given is Riannon but I'm siding with an idea that I'm trans* so I prefer to call myself Ryan, I'm afraid of the imminent ostrisision from my family for coming out, I'm thirteen, which also adds fuel to the ostrisision fire, I tend to go into a loop of destructive thoughts and self harm, I /do/ self harm when I entertain my thoughts when they become strong, I'm and always have been socially awkward and kind of shy, and lack self esteem. I do care a /lot/ about others… yet I have a hard time expressing that. I have a couple of very severe phobias that make me cry when take place. I cannot be within two inches of any single kind of bug at all, not even ants or butterflies or flies or ladybugs. I cannot look at the sky because the length between me and that cloud up there is too large and I have the crazy idea deep down that it will fall on me. I cannot be in a room with a ceiling thats way up there, for same reasons as the cloud. I cannot be on a structure high in the air because it has a possibility of breaking and making me scared to fall on it.
Age	23
Experienced with	Depression, Phobias, Self Harm, Sexuality
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